Navigating through uncertainty

Currently, I am attempting to navigate through uncertainty. Uncertainty in different areas, but mainly in how to make it through the struggles that are presenting themselves in my professional life.

I have spent many years of my life knowing exactly what I was good at – I am good with managing people (while it can be extremely stressful), and I am also generally pretty great with sales. I have spent the last seven years in sales – from cellphones and other mobile products, home internet and TV, to houses. (Being a realtor was the most fun job I’ve ever had, but it just wasn’t the most stable.)

Recently, I have switched lanes in my life and have gotten out of the wireless industry, and when I tell you, the culture shock is real. I know that having different experiences is good for building a diverse set of skills, but adjusting is hard for me. I have had so much change in my life in the last 10 years. For example, I have lived in 4 different states between 2022 and 2025. I have moved 8 different times in that time frame.

When I bought my house in 2020 I didn’t intend for it to be my final place, but I did intend for it to be somewhere that I would be for at least 5 years. I sold it after two years because of health issues I had (that we believe were being caused by my ex, but there’s no definitive evidence to prove it). I have also worked in commission-only sales for a long time, and the pay structure has always been very volatile.

All of this is to say, the uncertainty has really played a toll on me, and recently I have been trying to work through that by doing some self-work and changing things about myself and what I do. I have changed most of the music in my library to uplifting and motivational music (I am not a religious person, but I do believe that spirituality is good for everyone, no matter what it looks like for the individual), as well as trying to work on forgiving those who have done me wrong in my life. I hope that through this journey, I am able to get to the point of breaking free from this anxiety of uncertainty and work through these issues that have manifested themselves through years of trauma. Maybe then the right path will pave it’s way and open up.